#but yeah... still got iz on the mind

[izzysillyhandsy]

Ed-and-Izzy-related stuff that stood out for me in episodes 6 and 7:

Their quiet familiarity and mutual fondness

The main thing I wanted from S2 regarding Ed and Izzy was at least a hint of a mutual, loving relationship between the two of them in the past. The way Izzy acted around Ed in S1 made no sense to me if there wasn't a strong, very old, tried and tested bond there. Equally, Ed's behaviour around Izzy, the familiar way he called him Iz, the exasperated way he reacted to Izzy's izzyness, showed (for me) a closeness of decades living together.

Izzy's "You know me better than anyone has ever known me, and I daresay the same is true for me about you" is the truth, in my opinion. It's about the little things, all the experiences they've had together, sharing a space, food, drink (how natural did it feel when Ed took Izzy's bottle?). Everyone who's had a close friend for decades knows how that feels.

Yes, there are aspects of Ed that Stede gets and Izzy doesn't. But I always had the feeling that Ed feels like home for Izzy and vice versa. This feeling was just very well hidden in S1 because of Izzy's confusion, jealousy and resentment.

(Of course, Izzy is also in love with Ed and Ed, as of S1, isn't. But the (platonic) love, friendship and fondness underlying everything is tangible.)

2. Together, they've got this "us against the world" vibe

One of my favourite headcanons is young Ed and Iz mutinying together, or deciding to kill someone who made their lives hell (with Iz doing the actual killing, obviously). Both learning to fight and to survive in a cruel world together.

I'm not saying this was in any way confirmed or anything (flashback scene, I'm still waiting), but the scene above with Ed looking out at the sea, Izzy who can't take his eyes off him... they seem so attuned to each other. "Where you go, I'll follow."

I know this isn't the most coherent analysis, I'm struggling to describe the feeling I got when watching this scene.

It was like yes, they've fought their way up together. Even after everything that happened, put them next to each other on a ship and they just fit. If they wanted to, they could do anything.

(In a way, it's such a pity Ed doesn't want to be a pirate anymore, at least not a scary Blackbeardy one. Those two have a look going.)

3. Izzy and Ed both connect Izzy's love declaration to Ed shooting him

"You know what he did when I told him I loved him?" "He shot me." "He shot you, yeah." "I know."

This is not 100% clear cut, but to me Izzy's delivery very strongly infers that Izzy didn't know Stede knew (and didn't tell him).

Which means that ED TOLD STEDE.

If that's the case, then

Izzy, at some point, realized that Ed shooting him wasn't (all) about him reminding Ed of Stede

Izzy has a better grasp on Ed's inner struggles than previously assumed

Izzy and Ed both see this declaration as important enough that Ed would permanently injure and eventually kill Izzy for it and Izzy and Stede are both like "yeah, figures"

Ed himself knows and admits that him shooting Izzy was about Izzy (still) loving him in that moment

I mean, I'm still shocked about that.

There were a lot of great metas about Ed's motivations after Ep2 came out, and some of them suggested exactly this: that Ed wanted to be an unloveable monster, that this was the only way he could deal with what he'd done, and Izzy's love was standing in the way of his grand self-destruction.

I wasn't prepared for Izzy, Stede and probably Ed being concious of that and kinda offhandedly acknowledging it in the show?

And even if it wasn't Ed but Izzy who told Stede (which I don't believe, but it's possible) - it's still crazy.

Izzy matter-of-factly telling Stede "Yeah, Ed shot me because I told him I loved him" and Stede being like "Yeah, of course, that's our Ed <3" is mind-blowing to me.

4. Izzy's love song

The lyrics at this exact moment:

Il me l'a dit, l'a juré pour la vie. - He told me, he swore to me, for life.

He really means it. They're married. I rest my case.

5. The first kill's always a mindfuck

So, I have this persistent obsession about Izzy being Ed's personal henchman, and Ed "outsourcing the big job" Teach resenting him for it.

In that respect, Ed's reaction to Stede's first kill was very interesting.

It probably wasn't like that in the beginning, but Ed seems to be a bit of a hypocrite when it comes to violence. Izzy is irrevocably tainted, but I think he wants to keep Stede "pure" (he didn't mind when Stede torched the ship, but that's the hypocrisy in action).

This is of course totally my headcanon, but I think Izzy's first kill was significant. I think Iz did it for Ed. And I think it was very difficult for him (either because Izzy-the-artsy-outsider was actually quite sensitive and nowhere near a bloodthirsty killer and/or because he cared about the person he killed). But Ed was so impressed, and so thankful, so he just carried on doing Ed's dirty work and it changed him forever :(

6. Ed's apology

This whole scene.

Scowly face. Mopey twat. Oh, look, you're talking to me again.

The way they're saying it, Izzy's expressions, their body language - it feels so incredibly intimate. From this exchange alone I would bet they were lovers at some point.

Iz bringing the bottle as a cover and excuse and Ed understanding and playing along.

Ed's "Sorryboutyourleg" being the exact opposite of his public "apology".

I almost cried (like Iz) 😢

CONCLUSION: Why is there only one episode left I need more of this!!!

Also: IZZY LIVES <3

[octuscle]

Hi support, you have helped me become a rebel, a chav, a daddy, a jock and a skinhead. I have enjoyed every change but want to try something new. Hit me with your best!

You mean to say I have carte blanche? I can do whatever I want? Dude, I need time off so bad! I'm sick of the office and the hotline and customers who are too stupid to read a manual. I've been thinking about a vacation on the farm. I've also already found the perfect preset…. But I'm still missing the right pal to break in horses during the day and hang out with beer and football on TV in the evening. Buddy, I bet you look adorable in cowboy boots and a self cut mullet.

Fuck, yeah, Buddy! Mah ass iz fuckin' sore though. But thet wuz uh rilly good day. Yawl rilly know how tuh handle foals. Got uh laht? An after thet yawl can ride uh stallion. Don't mind mah ass an give it chur all, stud!

Vacation booked @uniformpics2

[ibelivedthehypeam]

Izzy stradlin smut

I’ve been stuck with my brother all day, sat meaninglessly in the studio waiting for him to finish. However the part I didn’t mind was getting to see his friend, who was incredibly attractive.

I had only realised it a few weeks back. The five of them had arranged to meet at axl’s and that’s when I ended up actually getting to know them. Slash was chill, the guy would sit there, smoke and play guitar. Duff and Steven were also incredibly cool guys, duff was almost like a mum while Steven ran around with parts of drums. It took me a while to realise Izzy was there, he was the quietest of the five, he was pretty distracted by his guitar and I couldn’t help but let my eyes linger. He had brown eyes and his hair was dark, he was pretty fucking hot.

Since then we had shared a conversation or two ever so often. If it was about my day or what he was playing it always left me smiling. As we got closer I found myself thinking about him more and more, how his lips would feel if we kissed or how his dick-.

“Hey, you ok.” I was suddenly dragged out of my thoughts by Izzy who looked strangely at me putting his hand on my shoulder.

“Yeah, I’m cool just thinking about something Axl said.” I replied thinking quickly to avoid any embarrassment.

He looked convinced and began to show me something he was practicing on his guitar. I complimented what he had wrote as Axl shouted for him by the door. Izzy excused himself walking to whatever Axl wanted to shout at.

After a while I heard Axl say “seriously man don’t, she’s my-!” And some more mutters of annoyance. Steven elbowed duff to get his attention and sniggered at Izzy walking back into the room sheepishly. He smiled at me before getting a beer from the fridge.

“This is so boring, can’t we just watch a movie!” Steven exclaimed putting his drum sticks down and finishing his drink. Slash shrugged and agreed, duff contemplating which movie we could watch. I gave some ideas and Izzy quickly agreed it was a better idea. Axl groaned and thought they could use a break.

Soon enough the six of us were settled in the cramped front room. Duff and slash on the two seater, me and Izzy on the other, Axl on a arm chair and Steven laying in the floor with my cat. After a lot of arguing we had decided on Jaws.

When we had got about half way into the movie Slash had fallen asleep, duff left to see his girlfriend and Izzy had wrapped his arm around my waist his other hand finding mine under the blanket. Axl turned round and glared at Izzy who held me tighter and I giggled, he huffed and turned round again. He moved his hand holding mine to itch his shoulder and my hand slipped down to his thigh. I stroked his leg and circled my thumb. I could feel his heart rate increase as I brought my hand higher up his thigh, my finger between his denim legs. He placed a silent kiss on my shoulder, I looked round to see his eyes dark and his lips curling into a smirk. I checked to see if anyone was watching, Axl nodding to sleep, Slash still laying down on the settee asleep and Steven still immersed in the film. Looking back to Izzy I brought my face closer to his, looking down to his thin, pink lips. He had moved in placing a soft peck to my lips, darting his eyes to Axl, before kissing me again. This time more passionately, slipping his tongue into my mouth. His hand held my cheek, tilting my head to kiss me harder. We pulled away at a grunt from somewhere, both our heads shooting to slash who was stood up laughing his head off.

“What the hell are you laughing at slash?” Axl asked day properly in the chair again. Steven giggled still watching the movie, unaware of what was going on.

“Oh nothing much, gonna head home now.” Slash replied winking at us and pulling Steven up. He and Steve agreed on getting a cab back together.

“You going Iz?” Axl asked obviously wanting to go to bed and so he didn’t have to ‘supervise’ me and Izzy. He moved his hands away from me and stretched rubbing his eyes, I thought he was going.

“Nah i’ll watch the end of this, you can go to bed, I won’t kill her.” Izzy yawned, I visibly grinned and Axl agreed, to tired to care anymore. As soon as he had disappeared into his room izzy looked over at my smirking.

“Your pretty yn.” He admitted and stroked my head before kissing me again. This time it was more needy, I wrapped my hands around his neck and he brought his round my waist. Biting down on his lip, he groaned and I ran my tongue round his mouth.

“You know we could watch this movie in my room.” I suggested smirking at him, seeing his eyes darken with lust. I grabbed his hand and walked up the stairs to my bedroom. As soon as we walked through the door I joined our lips together and he walked us back towards my bed.

He swiftly took his shirt of as I sat on his lap, moving our hips together as he licked and kissed up my chest ridding of my top. I felt him growing beneath me, feeling his desire build as he fiddled with my joggers, pulling them down along with my underwear. Grabbing at his sides I found his belt, pulling it through and tossing it somewhere to find in the morning. I palmed his hard and I saw his eyes close and his small moan at the contact. Unbuttoning his jeans I found myself desperate for his touch, pulling them away he stroked himself slightly.

“Your so gorgeous, you cool?” He asked into my shoulder I gripped him and nodded as he entered me in one thrust. He was thick, I felt so full, both of us letting out moans of pleasure at the sensation. He started to move causing me to kiss and bite his neck, as he praised me.

“Your doing so well, gotta keep quite sweetheart, Axl would kill me if he knew what a good girl you were being for me.” He groaned. Hearing him whisper dirty things into my ear, thrust so deep into me and feeling his rough hands on my hips sent me close to the edge.

“Harder Iz.” I moaned and he did, hitting the spot over and over again, as I felt my orgasm approaching. He looked into my eyes as I felt myself go, and feel him do the same. He pulled out, heavily breathing, still kissing my neck and stroking my sides. He got his shirt and a towel, covering me up and giggling with me.

“That was a good movie.” He joked putting his arms round me, as we lay in bed wrapped up in each other.

“Axl is gonna kill you.” I mentioned with a giggle and he chuckled.

“I’ll deal with him in the morning.”

Authors note - hiya, hope you liked this I found it fun to write. 😀

[murkystarlight]

DREAMZZZ season2 (part 2) spoilers

(It's really just me making random comments on the episodes)

Episode 17

Yes, Izzie. We're going to the beast realm-

Dizzy apparently is still here- what. Are they buddies now? Or what

Wildoria- ooh

Z! Don't eat that-

Nova jumping behind Iz. (Nice to see Nova and Sneak more often)

Toss it our of the rift?? Ohh- I can already see this is a bad idea.

And Z spit it out. Good. And it's also something really important. Of course it is.

Beast master. Sounds like he would have the crown of control- cause he's the master. Y'know?

Make Nova dream about Wildoria? Wow- and she specifically said "I'm glad I'm.not going"

Ooh! So they didn't forget about the birthday. Good. And I guess Mateo isn't completely avoiding Jasmine of Jasmine chose to call Mateo instead of Izzie. Or maybe Izzie just didn't pick up-

Montage!!

Woah- okay Izzie. No more rad radioactive. Please- you had enough already

She's crafty too, isn't she

Mateo doesn't like change- he's accepting it. But he's taking his time... oh... this just like the Never Witch

It's Sneak's drink. Oh my god- you can't just steal other people's stuff

Zoey narrating. And does it well?? Really well-

Okay- what is that temple-(and yes. The animals definitely do look like they are under control

He came in through the rift! He isn't dreaming! Oh gos- I have so many questions now

Okay Claudius. He is wearing the crown as suspected-

Living the dream! (But literally)

I kind of like this Claudius guy

He seems lonely. And.. a freak kinda

...Izzie? Is.. is she okay? I don't think she is-

Wow. Sneak is great at voice acting

She won't be able to fall asleep. No sir. Definitely not

Now she's pissed. It's your own fault

At least the food is edible. I thought it be like.. bugs- but then again. They have bugs among them. So I guess that would be like.. cannibalism-

Why did you tell him that there's more powerful artifacts! No! He's the kind that's crazy for power isn't he!

Animal abuse-

Hm. Nevermind I hate this guy.

Good thinking Zoey

The tickling vines

"Inspiring him to take a shower"

Apparently he showers with his clothes on. Question. Do you need to shower in the dream realm?

Jumping rope?

Cooper keeps trying to do stuff- which.. is good. Yeah. And he's getting creative. Thinking outside the box and all that

Oh- you okay?...

Okay- the fly trap looks creepy. And how is Nova so peaceful- cute

Does he have that crown glued on his head?! The heck??

Ooh. Mind control??

Also- really? Scaring your friend in a dream? Really?? That's the plan?

Sack him? Oh gosh. Well it worked. But Zoey isn't being controlled. Welp- better luck next time(she dodged the darn thing?? How??)

Izzie- no- no oh my god.

C-rex looks amazing with all that lighting

Also, is Cooper holding a guy in a sack. Over his shoulder. With one hand- it's a dream but still

"WHERE IS THE RIFT"

Cooper!

Apparently controlling people isn't the only thing he can do. Or were they controlled to wake up

And the rift clised- and they got doom domed! And Logan is... really good at falling asleep (so sweet how he stays with her)

And Clause is really dumb

Episode 18

Power hungry dude. (With good hearing)

He is real trouble.

Oh no- Logans a giant panda! (...Izzie likes it?) Oh no- he isn't good.

Look at the four of them together- watching that tiny dome-

Suffering for Izzie

"Izzie's gone!"

"Logan isn't answering his phone, Mateo's freaking out, and Mr. Oz well.... he's not helping"

"Izzie's gone!!"

"I was such a jerk to Izzie last night! I'm her brother! I'm supposed to take care of her!"

"Izzie's gone-!"

The amount of stuff going on here- chaos. I love the chaos. And also, Mateo being a sweet brother-🥺

Mateo blaming himself😭😭 oh my goddd

Supportive friends

Omg! The party-!

"Izzie's gone?!"

Wait- aren't we in the waking world? How is Dizzy here?? (Also, my theory was- kind of right?? Yay!!)

I really wanted to see the clones out in the waking world. But working together... that's not what I expected. Still good though

Oh- the nightmare thing at school-

"Izzie's gone?"

"Oh Izzie's gone??"

Izzie's new outfit! So that's why it's animal themed...

"Maybe this will knock some sense into you!" *attempts to smash her friends head*

Mrs. Castillo notices that Dizzy looks different

"Are you crazy? I don't eat cobras! Some of my best friends are cobras!!"

Wow-

Cooper's a great actor (and Mateo's staring at him like he's crazy)

Ooh the gems are pretty

Oh- and she lost Bunchu

Logan! (His hair looks like Lance-)

"Oh Izzie! I'm so sorry-"

How did he wake up??

Dizzy... you're not even trying

And.. logan is a wolf now. Okay. Sure... makes... sense

"Oh, it's, uh, a new online challenge?"

He's great at lying now

"Uh.. not sure Logan's in control anymore"

"Was he ever?"

Mrs. Putnam- wow. He really fell asleep fast

The griffen is... sorta helping? Zinnia is a nice name

Oh- no she's not

She really has a lot of talents

Wow. She changes so darn much and people are just going "Oh. Okay. Well anyways-"

Middle-schoolers. Haha.

Karaoke~

"Dizzy! You're a genius"

"Wow-! I've never gotten a compliment before"

Ohhh I see it coming now~~

Oh- they still have resistance(way with animals)

Uh- what did she put in the punch? Pickle?? Oh-

Dizzy is really good at bad-

"Spicy! Hot! Hot!" (Her voice- unique)

Izzie is being smart

The party.. is going to shit

Mateo likes it. Well- of course. I mean this kind of stuff is fun-

She's motivational- dang..

The cake-

Can't feel my tongue no more- how bad is it?!

Food fight!!

Logan! Noooo

The nice conversation between Dizzy and Mateo

"Oh dang- uh, they're totally gonna eat him, arent they" Ohhh he's in for it now

"No one should use this crown!"

Yes ma'am! Yes! Good good. Very inspiring. She's good

And- the Never Witch is here now. Wait- she's taking it that easily??

She helping the dishes?

Chants in Latin?? Latin?!

So much stuff going on-

Episode 19

Their dad is so sweet-

Um- what the heck??

Cooper!

What is going on-

Alright- um.. let's go boys

Oh- look at that! Beautiful picture! I love how it looks-- all the dopples positioned

Ah- they... they're gone- they're good. And... coming together? Um... I'm kind of worried

Astrid! She's disappeared after getting her new clothes. Good to see ya!

How is she rolling up the stairs like th-

Logan is still a bit frenzy- I guess since the crown of control is with the Never Witch?

Oh- no. He's just racing with Iz

Oh! Never Witch backstory

Zoey really doesn't like bugs

Ooh- yeah the Never Witch didn't even try to design it well

King Albert! Yes operate him again

"Deja vu!"

"You- can say that again"

"Deja vu."

Yo- king Albert is amazing(while . He lasted)

Cooper is good at tech. Isn't he

Zoey! Cooper!! (The blast was beautiful tho)

Logan- be patient, and nice (the panda voice is so- cu)

"Greaat. Now the space car blows up on my watch too. Hah hah- Mr. Oz is never gonna let me drive his ships again"

(Oh right. I forgot to say this.

Sorry Mr. Oz-)

And um.. technically, he isn't allowed to drive. I know it's a dream. But still-

"What ships? Grab my hand!"

....my brain is hopeless (Cooper× Zoey?)

O0O

Pyewacket!!

"Then what are we waiting for?"

"Nothing"

"Let's rock and roll"

Okay- but the giant monstrosity of a thing is like... super creepy

The sand effects look so prettttyyyy

"Be careful Zoey! You can't miss"

"Ugh- no pressure"

Love these two.

Mateo! Good job- Astrid!(oh- she's gone)

"Pyewacket, do the cat thing and hassle the birds. But quietly!"

Cat on his head!

Eugh that does look gross- I'm so sorry for you Zoey

"Uh- sorry Mr. Oz. We're working on it"

He sounds.. really unenthusiastic- loo

Oh dear- Cooper....

And- you lost it. Good job Zoey. Now you have to get up close to the bugs!

Wow. Cooper really needs a prize for actjng- like.. try out for a school play. Sure you'll do well lol

"There were more. Two girls, another boy, and the green one" (Well- you just blasted the other boy)

...this is actually kind of creepy. Does good with the visual effects

Well- that was one heck of an episode. Also, what happened to Cooper? Did he get sucked in? Or..

Episode 20

Twentieth!! Last one!

"The way it was always meant to be"

Oh no- wait what? Oh- the green one!!

Oh... was not expecting that! The writers are good at writing twists-

Yes! Protect your sister!! (And logan of course-)

Zoey is having the worst nightmare ever. Like- I would scream myself awake

The spider does have pretty eyes tho-

The Never Witch made a really cool speech

Zoey is scared- like a lot. Which is reasonable

Woah- awesome

Question. How does the memory help with stopping the witch??

Hug

Jesus- how many pets does she have(a lot)

Cooperrrrr! Ahhhhhh (was he hanging there this whole time? What the-)

"Maybe she got tied up?"

Uh.. correct! 10/10 (what is this dude-)

Pye glowing! Glowing!what's gonna happen now~

"Can you figure out how to release the doom-domes?"

"Hm.. tricky.."

What- can he really do everything? Like- dude! What the-

Playing catch (going to be real dizzy for Izzie and Logan)

Cooper! (Again? Really? What is- What- huh?)

Oh no- he's fine

And now Z

Oh' what the- sound waves? Pye?

Pye!! Oh my god- music! Speakers oh~

Now we get to see the memory! Yess

Oh- the yellow flowers died. Crying. Oh

Ahhhh

"You can hate me. But I'll never hate you. I love you, sister. I want you to remember that"

Well. I heard that line a few times before-

Uh... bonding with the Never Witch?

Wow- cooper. You get into a lot of things

Oh... she- she wanted to- she didn't want her sister to think that she hated her- Oh my god- this lego show has no right to be this- this-! Ugh

......goodbye-

Hold hands! Yes. Wait what- hold on. No like seriously- is it necessary? And- Well- in..

"They're in the wrong places. This isn't right"

"But it's great. I mean, look at it. It doesn't have to be exactly the same as it was before. I learned a lot of new stuff. I'm better"

"How do we know it'll be better?"

Yes you are! YES YOU SO VERY ARE- AHHRGGRGHH

And Mateo? Please don't do that- you keep leaving trails of *I kind of agree with the villain. But you know, in a slightly different way*

"We don't. But we can hope for the best. You can't control everything. And that's okay"

Okay. Now, kiss.(no but seriously- come on! Ahhh-) (do they really have to do it together? Like that? Really? Oh my God- ahhhahahah)

She accepted it. Oh- this is... such a nice ending-

Sandman!! Burzerker! Camelion! Phil!!!

They're all back! Yesss ahhhhh

Awww-

Bye Dizzy

Woah- I feel

Oh it's not over yet-

Logan talking about his moms, date with Astrid-

Mateo's more open to Jasmine too it seems!

"Can we skip school today?!" (Worth a shot-)

Mr. Oz... that's so sweet of you to say... ....but did you say gift from Lunia?

And Zoey's binding with her dad more too-

I- oh god-

.......wait. is this the end of DREAMZZZ??

I mean... it would be like- a great ending. But... ....

[our-death-means-flag]

izzy hands x reader where like him, they get up with the sun and work all day but unlike him, they get intense migraines when they’re overwhelmed. this can be literally as short as you want it to be im just so anxious lately and my head hurts like hell

For Professional Reasons

Ship: Izzy Hands x Reader Summary: When you’re not up when you usually wake up, Izzy goes to check on you. For totally professional reasons. Warnings: Izzy

Izzy woke up before the sun as usual. He got ready quickly and headed up to the deck and noticed something was off immediately. Usually you’d be there to greet him. The idea of having two first mates on a ship felt utterly ridiculous but the Revenge was utterly ridiculous in a lot of ways. At least you actually were competent. All of his yelling did nothing but as soon as you asked gently, the crew would leap to do whatever you asked. It was ridiculous. But you were… fine. It was almost nice to have someone up with him early in the morning. The two of you would drink your coffee or tea together and it was nice. Hell, sometimes you were awake before him and he’d walk on deck to see you already working, usually with a cup of coffee all ready for him. For you to not be up already working was incredibly bizarre. 

He briefly considered waiting for you but his mind was already buzzing with everything horrible that could have happened. Fuck it. He was going to go get you.

 Izzy tried to rationalize it as just a part of his duty. He needed to check on you for completely professional reasons. Definitely. 

He already had a hand on his sword as he knocked on the door of your cabin. He’d knocked on your door before and you’d always been quick to cheerfully invite him in. So not getting a response was concerning.  Sword drawn, he decided that he was going in. If anything had happened to you, he would raise hell. For completely professional reasons. Izzy pushed the door open and rather than some terrible scene all he saw was you curled up in your bunk, pillow wrapped around your head. 

“Y/N?” He asked. His voice came out much gruffer than he meant to. 

“Hmm? Yeah?” You mumbled sleepily. Then your eyes widened as you seemed to recognize him. You jumped, immediately sitting up and looking much more out of order than he’d ever seen. “Shit! Izzy! Fuck! I’m late right? I’m so incredibly sorry!”

You managed to stumble to your feet and grab your jacket before Izzy fully realized how terrible you looked. You looked like you hadn’t slept in a while (despite having just rolled out of bed) and you had one hand clutched to your head even as the other fumbled with the buttons on your jacket. Izzy had no clue how to deal with this. Were you sick? Hurt?

“Y/N?” He asked again softer this time.

You were still kind of mumbling about being sorry. Clearly you weren’t going to listen so he grabbed you by the shoulders and all but shoved you back in bed. That seemed to snap you out of it somewhat. You still had one hand on your temple. “Iz, I’m sorry. I’ll be right up, I promise.” You restated, conviction  clear in your tone.

“What’s wrong with you?” Izzy asked and immediately felt bad when you flinched. That sounded so much more like an insult than an honest attempt to ask what’s wrong. You looked moments away from apologizing again and Izzy felt like he might drop dead if you kept apologizing to him when he’s the one being a dick. “No, fuck… That sounded… Fuck. Are you… Are you alright?” He tried.

You gave him one of those patient smiles that made him want to hurl himself into the ocean because of how they made his heart jump.  “I’m… I’m fine. It’s just… Just a migraine.” You shrugged, making Izzy realize he still had his hands on your shoulders. He instantly let go but you just smiled as if you didn’t mind at all. “I get them sometimes. Especially when I’m overwhelmed and yesterday…” You smiled, any casualness you were attempting to portray made moot by your obvious wince.. “Yesterday was a lot.”

Izzy could definitely see where you were coming from there. The crew had done two raids almost back to back when their target ship was sailing with another smaller ship. It had gone well with only minor injuries but it had been utterly draining. Even Bonnet was too exhausted for his ridiculous storytime and (rather than complaining as they usually would) the crew didn’t even make a fuss. But you’d seemed fine. 

Although… Now that he thought about it. You had still been working by the time he’d gone to bed. “Did you sleep at all?” 

You looked almost guilty, like a kid who got caught staying up too late. “Not really. Maybe an hour or two. Usually can’t sleep when I have them… Hurts.” 

“That bad?” 

“Feels like I took a cannonball to the skull at point blank.” You chuckled, humorlessly.

Izzy hissed in sympathy. He knew a thing or two about being kept up by pain. 

“I really can be up on deck in a few minutes. I won’t make you take double duty ‘cause of me.” You offered. You seemed more worried about inconveniencing him than your own pain.

“No.” Izzy replied firmly. “You are going to stay here. Lie down. I’m sure I can handle the idiots for one day on my own. Hell, maybe if I told them that you wanted them to do their chores they’d actually do them.” He felt oddly satisfied when that got a slight chuckle out of you.

“Iif the crew gets too rowdy, feel free to drag them in here and I’ll look all pathetic and sad. Might work.” You added with a small smile. 

Izzy rolled his eyes but it probably would work…  “Is there anything that can help with your migraines?”

You smiled again and Izzy was feeling incredibly unprofessional. “Thanks. A cold compress would be good if that’s not too much of a pain…”

“I’ll get one.” Izzy nodded, already planning ahead how to make sure you got fresh compresses throughout the day. “And when Roach is up, I;ll get you something light to eat.” He offered.

“Thank you. Just… If there’s an emergency, don’t hesitate to come get me, okay?” You sighed and lied down.

“Of course.” Izzy lied, well aware that he wouldn’t bother you unless the ship was actively on fire and/or sinking.

As Izzy turned to leave, he was stopped dead in his tracks by a soft hand grabbing his ungloved hand. He turned to see you smiling. “Thanks Iz.” You said, your tone soft and kind and genuinely grateful. “It really means a lot.”

He gripped your hand back for a moment before catching himself and letting go. “You’re welcome… Now just lie down…”

Izzy all but ran out of your cabin, closing the door as softly as he was able, trying to push the thoughts of how soft your hand was and how gentle your smile was out of his mind. 

The way he traced his palm where you’d touched his hand, was irrelevant.. He was just helping you out. First mate to first mate. Totally for professional reasons. That was all. 

A/N: I get migraines too and this was as much for me as it was for you, anon. Hope you enjoy

[silantryoo]

BONUS [ RP STONT ] — iz*one’s ahn yujin?

y/n and yujin’s first hangout

WARNINGS ; mentions of overworking, death threats, misogyny

y/n sat quietly as yujin stared at her, wondering what to say to the girl. the hybe idol had just arrived when the news had dropped, leaving the awkward situation much more awkward than it already was.

even though yujin didn’t know the girl well, she felt bed.

“are you okay?” yujin asked, the wind blowing her hair as the two stood against the edge of the railing on starship’s rooftop hangout.

y/n’s eyes moved to scan the city of seoul. she wondered how people could hate her so much for something that they knew nothing about. did people just naturally hate her? was it in her blood?

y/n hated being a kim sometimes.

“i feel like shit.” y/n said honestly, she looked over to yujin with her eyes glazed over. “but yeah, i’m okay.”

yujin looked her up and down. chaewon had mentioned to her that y/n was going to get like this, but yujin had dealt with enough drama in IVE to be comfortable enough to push.

“are you sure?”

y/n stared at her, immediately knowing the worried gaze of a leader.

“if you ask me again, i’ll break down.” y/n winced, realizing that it might have been a bit too hostile.

yujin wasn’t fazed. she understood how hard the situation was. she was couldn’t imagine how tiring it must be to be the scapegoat of the group. the public was brutal, especially when it came to girls who naturally attracted people towards them.

she was just surprised that the public was more repulsed by y/n herself than by the thought of two girls dating. their country may have progressed, but they still hated women.

“i’m sorry. i’m just embarrassed.” y/n apologized. she shook her head as she looked at the business below. “i can’t believe i’m breaking down in front of my bias.”

yujin felt herself blushing, not expecting the girl to be so forward. she covered her mouth, her smile making her eyes squint into a moon shape. “i’m your bias?”

y/n nodded, not sure what the big deal was. “in iz*one, yeah.”

yujin’s face dropped. “not in IVE?”

y/n shook her head almost automatically, hiding a smile as she watched yujin’s face. it was always fun to tease leaders. they usually had the most extreme reactions.

maybe that’s why y/n loved teasing minji so much.

“you have no taste.” yujin rolled her eyes, a playful smile covering her face.

chaewon was right about how the two of you would get along. it was nice to finally have a friend around her age that wasn’t insanely busy all the time (read: shin yuna).

y/n scoffed, leaning back. “you’re just bitter.”

“you’re just blind.”

y/n chuckled, IVE’s leader joining soon after. it was one of the very rare times that the two felt like they weren’t hanging out to make connections, something extremely common in the industry.

yujin finally had someone who she felt like she could talk to about things aside from work, and she knew that y/n felt the same, even if the two of you had more friends than just each other.

the two girls fell silent, once again watching the busy streets of korea.

y/n couldn’t help but start to worry. the media had a horrible way of twisting her into the villian, even back when she was a trainee. she couldn’t imagine minji going through something similar.

it made her angry, and made her fearful for the younger girl. she would never say it out loud, but she would gladly take the hit for minji if it meant that she got to live in a world that wasn’t like hers.

y/n just wanted minji to be okay.

yujin looked over to y/n, noticing that the girl was starting to overthink. she knew that face, yujin saw it in the mirror every time she looked.

“we can talk about something to take your mind off of it.” yujin hummed, y/n’s eyes snapping to the taller girl’s.

yujin sent her a smile, waiting for her to speak.

y/n blushed, not realizing that she had been that noticeable. she nodded, thinking of something to talk about. “i found this 7/11 that sells really niche american snacks.”

“wait what?” yujin stood up straight. her members would’ve loved to go there. “where?”

“i don’t remember.” y/n shrugged, a small grin appearing on her face. “i was with minji and we just ran around until we found something good.”

yujin nodded, squinting slightly as she observed how the shorter girl had started blushing.

“she almost got ran over on our date actually.” y/n reminised, looking back down at the street below.

minji had been in such a big rush, realizing that it was way past midnight and she was definitely going to get scolded by her manager in the morning.

“wait…” yujin’s eyes went wide. “you guys are actually dating?”

“no, like friend date.” y/n laughed, a small pang going through her chest. weird. “minji wouldn’t date me.”

yujin nodded, not believing the girl. “but you would date her?”

“if i liked her, yeah.” y/n shrugged, not sure why yujin was asking such random questions. “she deserves someone who’s good to her.”

yujin hummed. she felt like y/n was hiding something, and yujin knew she was nosey. y/n was her new friend, so pushing a little wouldn’t hurt.

“who would you want her to date?” yujin asked.

y/n thought a little, not sure why the question bugged her so much. “someone who she can have fun around.”

“oh,” yujin smirked, looking at y/n’s oblivious face. “like going on 7/11 dates?”

“yeah!” y/n agreed almost immediately. she turned to look to yujin, wondering if she was hinting at something. “are you dating anyone?”

yujin stopped herself from laughing. “i’m too busy being the leader here.”

y/n scoffed, hearing that excuse before. “you sound like chaewon-unnie.”

yujin gasped, hating the fact that she had been compared to le sserafim’s leader. she was nothing like that.

“chaewon-unnie’s blind.” yujin complained, ignoring y/n’s loud laughing. “she can’t even tell that minju-unnie has been waiting for her to ask her out. i’m surprised she even pulled.”

y/n laughed harder, momentarily forgetting about the entire problem of the night. “sounds like you’re projecting.”

“i can’t pull because everyone thinks i’m dating wonyoung.” yujin whined. she loved wonyoung but not like that. “wonyoung’s not even my type—”

“wonyoung’s not your type?!” y/n shouted, immediately wincing after she realized how loud she had been. “she’s everyone’s type?”

“not mine.” yujin sighed, smiling as she thought of her type. “i like people who can make me laugh without meaning to.”

yujin bit her tongue. she liked funny people, someone who didn’t care about cameras, but who was just themselves. she liked that type of funny.

“minji’s like that.” y/n smiled before glaring at yujin. “you can’t date her though.”

yujin sighed, shaking her head. “i know.”

“i’m serious.”

“i. know.”

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[aydann-runs]

“Can I ask you something hard?” Alex asks, lips brushing against the bare skin of Michael's shoulder in the dark.

Michael is still awake. Alex can feel it in the way Michael's body hasn't quite relaxed in his hold. It's a good time for hard conversations, they've learned, when they're close and connected, a little more unguarded than in the light of day.

“Yeah, ‘s long as I can change my mind if it's not somethin’ I wanna talk about.”

“Always,” Alex confirms.

That's the only ground rule they set for this, borrowed from sex, but useful here, too, that they both have to be okay with having the conversation. That there's no judgment if one of them changes their mind. It's happened a few times, where he or Michael has had to step away from a discussion.

Alex half expects his next question to be shut down from the start, but he asks it anyway. “Do you ever regret staying in Roswell after high school?”

He feels Michael tense, and Alex skims his palm across Michael’s belly, up his chest, and back down. Alex waits patiently, long enough he thinks Michael’s not going to answer. He’s just about to withdraw the question when Michael takes a deep breath and lets it out in a shaky exhale.

“There isn't a really great way to answer that,” Michael says, voice tinged with an old sadness. Alex squeezes him reassuringly but stays quiet. “I…everything was so fucked up then. I couldn’t get out, not after Rosa. Iz needed me, and Max sure as shit couldn't handle everything on his own.”

Alex hums in acknowledgement. It would be too easy to play Monday morning quarterback, but Michael doesn't deserve that. Besides, Alex doesn't know what he would have done at seventeen if he were in Michael's position, with the limited understanding he'd had at the time.

“After that summer, leaving wasn't an option anymore, even if I'd wanted to. I fucked up badly enough that UNM pulled my scholarships.”

Michael sighs and makes an aborted move to roll onto his stomach and bury his face in the pillow. Alex loosens his hold, but Michael shakes his head and presses back, renewing the close contact.

“I fucked up a lot of people's lives that summer. I hurt Liz and Arturo, Rosa. Isobel. I hurt you. There are a lot of things I regret, Alex, but staying was never one of them. I could never regret always being where you could find me.”

Alex tightens his grip on Michael as he falls silent, presses a kiss to the back of his shoulder. He waits until he's sure his voice will be steady to say, “When I first got back to town and told you I thought you'd be long gone, that was my biggest fear. It was so selfish of me. I wasn't in a good place, couldn't tell you how happy I was to see you. And god, I was sad that you'd been stuck here the whole time. I didn't understand then that this was where you'd needed to be.”

Alex buries his face in the curls at the nape of his husband's neck. He inhales the scent that's uniquely Michael, the first rainfall after a dry spell, a hint of motor oil that he can never fully wash away, a little bit of smoky bourbon.

Michael turns in his arms, brushes his nose against Alex's. “This is always where I've needed to be.”

[modern-inheritance]

The burns from Shruikan are giving me trouble, as the only truly exposed areas Arya would have while in her armor would be hands, neck and face. I think just for funky scars sake I’m gonna have the dragonfire overcome the armor and its wards on her right arm as it would be the leading defensive limb and have it kinda burn off at the weak connection points and leave some ‘flame licks’ on her arm I guess.

….shut up let me give her more scars I think I have a problem but I love them.

Also, since none of the frog marched elves had any idea what the fuck went down:

Glen: *cutting charred undersuit off to expose the rest of Arya’s arm* Besides some bruises and this burn, you’re in pretty good shape.

Arya: *still a little out of it after Glen told her Iz was alive* Yeah…

Arya: …I killed Shruikan. Thorn and Saphira helped a lot.

Glen: *distracted while applying burn and lidocaine ointment before the shock wears off and she actually starts feeling whatever the hell this is* Oh, that was nice of them.

Arya: yeah…Thorn’s got a nice mind.

Glen: Mm-hm.

………….

Glen: Wait, what?

Arya: huh?

Glen: what did you just say?

Arya: Thorn has a nice mind.

Glen: no before that.

Arya: he and Saphira helped me kill Shruikan.

Glen:

Glen: you what?

Blagden: fucking what?

Arya: what?

[house-afire]

Where We Left Off (Ed/Frenchie)

Prompt: 100 words of gift giving

Two weeks after the silvery chime of the cat bell stops tinkling in Frenchie’s dreams—honestly, he can’t say whether it’s a warning or a promise, might be both—he wakes up to find a page of sheet music tucked between his coat and his chest. It’s the middle bit of some symphony. Spoils from their latest raid, he thinks, because it’s got a bit of blood on it. Still readable, though.

It’s not hard to work out who it’s from. There are only two people on this ship who’d think it was all fine and normal, just the uszhe, to slip a present between his ribs like a knife instead of giving it to him properly, and Iz clomps a bit too much when he moves now to go sneaking around in the night. Has to be Ed, then.

Frenchie thinks it’s meant to be an apology for the rattling box in his mind. But he’s not, like, an apology person? It’s just hearing a reprise of a tune you didn’t even fancy the first time—in a minor key, too, like it’s all sad and dressed in sackcloth. Better to just move on, let it go. Eat your cake. Follow your bliss.

But he does like a good gift. A gift’s extra; it’s not doing any heavy lifting. It doesn’t have to put its hand inside weeks and weeks of darkness and turn it all inside-out like a pocket, leave the delicate lining of his life hanging out in the cold.

It doesn’t have to make things right. It’s just nice. Frenchie likes nice things.

He sits on a barrel, score on his knees, and picks out the fragment of the song on his lute. Ed watches him from across the deck, dark eyes huge and almost more hopeful than Frenchie can stand.

Ed looks good, these days. Better than he did even back before it all went to shit, if Frenchie’s honest. Back then he was like one of his cups of tea, seven sugars—one sip of him would hit you like a spike, like a snort of rhino horn. Now he’s more like … tea with honey. There’s something soothing about it.

Frenchie raises his chin a little: come on over, if you want.

It’s the first time he’s invited him so close, since all the purgatorial break-up grimness, and for a second the box in his head twitches, like some wild animal inside it has flung itself against the side. But Frenchie lets it go; thinks instead of waking to the crinkle of paper against his chest. Of knowing Blackbeard’s hand was right above his heart as he slept, and he’s still alive to tell the tale.

Enough of reprises and reprisals, yeah?

“What do you think?” he says, when Ed’s closer. “How’s it sound?”

“Playing’s great,” Ed reassures him, speaking a little too quickly. “We could start getting sirens hanging off the barnacles, man, you go on like that. But the start’s a bit shit, isn’t it? Just wallops you out of nowhere.”

“Yeah, well.” Frenchie looks from the score to Ed and back again. His throat is dry, and he has to unstick his tongue from the roof of his mouth. “Think there’s a page missing, maybe. Like I’m coming in at the middle. But, you know, shrugging it off. Got to start somewhere.”

He imagines tossing a bunch of bloodied, marked-up pages into the sea. Tipping his box over the side with it.

And he knows he can’t, not completely, but you have to play with what you’ve got, don’t you? You just pick a song and go with it.

Ed’s all about the metaphor, Frenchie thinks, because he’s looking at him like Frenchie’s given him something back. Hope all trussed up with a bow on it. Last thing to fly out of Pandora’s box, in Stede’s story. He clears his throat, like he could use some tea with honey too.

“Where do you think it goes from there?” he asks Frenchie, pointing to the bottom of the sheet, where the notes traipse off the page and get lost.

“Dunno, babes,” Frenchie says, holding on to hope’s ankles. “Want to help me figure it out?”

[fillinforlater]

what's your kpop journey ? (how you got into it, your first groups and biased, your opinion on kpop before etc.)

Thank you for the ask, my tired brain will try it's best to talk about how what when happened and yeah... let's go

Early Phase (2012-2016)

Basically me knowing that Psy exists because of Gangnam Style and later Gentleman. Young me really enjoyed those songs, but there was no real connection to korea or the idea/culture of kpop.

Then my sister introduced me to the song Tomorrow by BTS but because I was in my anime phase at the time, I just put it in my anime playlist. I fucking loved the song tho lol.

No bias, no real opinion either lol.

BLACKPINK Phase (2018-2019)

I don't really know how but I found Blackpink and started to vibe with their songs and style, which got really enhanced by their dance of DDU-DU DDU-DU on Just Dance 2019, which i played a lot. I got into them a bit more and my sister (who was a kpop fan behind my back basically kek) showed me Monster of EXO and Don't Wanna Cry of SEVENTEEN.

I was deinitely not a kpop fan, hell, I had no real clue about the culture or other groups or the fact that BTS, who I had one random song of was currently on and unprecedented rise. Everything was set in place, but I was still only danving to D4 lol

Lisa is my bias, though I dunno what that is yet lol. I like Blackpink, but the concept of kpop was not yet really in my mind.

Covid-Lockdown Phase (March 2020-May 2020)

This was the void. There was nothing to do, nothing thag mattered. All responsibilities were on hold. Time to watch vids my siblings to pass the time.

What are they watching? Asian men I do not understand? Looks... fun! With every day, every video, every song I add to my playlist I fall deeper into this glorious hole that is kpop. Like a sponge, I suck up all the content until I am this weird multistan with no sense of direction but the unbridled want to know more and to listen to more.

Blackpink, then BTS, then Twice, the it was already basically everyone else. Kpop filled my time with more fun than everything else could have. Life, strangely, was perfect. During a fucking lockdown, I reached a peek that continued.

My favorite group is BTS by a HUUUGE margin, my bias is switching between Lisa, Jin and Dahyun.

Deeper Into the Hole (June 2020-March 2021)

I add more groups to the list I like. KARD, Red Velvet, Mamamoo, EXO, NCT, SEVENTEEN, Everglow, aespa, TXT, ATEEZ... it never seems to stop. New releases left and right filling my mind to the point were even drastic changes in life cannot shake me up. I'm still falling, reaching deeper for more.

I find songs that I love to death. Answer by ATEEZ especially has me with adrenaline on every listen. It is about now that I find it not that difficult to remember names of members and that I see some (especially) female idols as very pretty.

BTS best group, Dahyun best girl.

K-Pop-Fan (April 2021-August 2021)

Basically yeah. Multistan that had commited to IZ*ONE last second because they were more than just good... they were literally the greatest girl group ever... though I have yet to realize it.

My life is going quite well, I have fun, I don't get tired of this genre that id more than music. It's stupid game shows, funny compilations, memes, stupid takes and pretty people. Around this time I get a bit spicy, reading fanfiction, dumb W*ttp*d stuff with crazy stories until...

Smut. Fuck, since when were TWICE this hot???

But this WP stuff is quite cringey... so I looked around and found Tumblr. First was Peach, then ddeun and then... Levi.

BTS best group, TWICE a close second, Dahyun best girl, Nayeon and Minju were in the hunt.

Smite, Smut and Smusic (September 2021-March 2022)

I messaged Levi (basically just a fanboy letter lol) and he encouraged me to try writing myself. The last time I wrote creatively was 2016, so I really doubted that I could pull something off.

About a week later, I'm in this server with all these cool smut writers and yeah... everything went crazy lol. My life was different and so was my kpop life. The visual effect of idols grew exponentionally, from very high to absurd, yet I still found myself finding beauty and attractiveness in other people around me. I dunno how to explain it lol.

I was writing, listening and also chatting with these new amazing friends that helped me navigate through what were difficult times while also being incredibly talented. My hobby of kpop now turned to another hobby with a new group of friends which grew to great importance in this phase.

BTS an inch before IZ*ONE, Minju easily my new ult.

That's my life (April 2022-now???)

A lot of stuff happened in this time frame but my attitude towards kpop, this community, writing or idols hasn't changrd too drastically. I saw my first concert, that was awesome. IVE rocks my world, other 4th gen groups fight their way to my heart, while I still really love older stuff.

I reach thousands of followers, find new insanely pretty and hot idols, write way too many fucking stories about fucking lol. I listen to almost everything, kpop is still my No. 1 hobby, yet it never overtook my whole personality.

BTS-IZ*ONE-IVE, Minju remains No. 1 but I love so many other idols, especially Yujin and Gaeul.

If you read all this, thank you, have a nice day!

[irkenproperty]

New ZaDr AU planning

Okay, so this AU requires some backstory; how I found IZ was through an OC animation from a YT artist back in 2011. The audio was from Dib's Wonderful Life of Doom, when the pair are at Zim's front door: I've got a few things to tell you, Zim ... ... ... and that's all I have to say about that!

I had never heard of or seen IZ before, so I was imagining what the source of the audio was from. I still remember vividly what I thought the show was... so it only took me 12 years to make it into an AU, haha!

Humans have long since discovered and mastered space travel, and have branched out into galactic society.

Dib is a space cop. Nothing high ranking or anything. Imagine like a traffic cop... but in space, pffff--

Zim is an amateur criminal, cruising around in his self-made ship: GIR. He steals to survive, but sometimes get a little cheeky and goes for something self indulgent - sticky fingers.

GIR is the ship's AI, and speaks over the intercom systems. He doesn't actually fly himself, but can control the lights and such.

Dib is constantly dealing with the calls for assistance from the people Zim steals from, going to every call out to handle it himself. It distracts from his otherwise boring job, so gets a thrill from the small bursts of adventure.

Zim is very apathetic to the people he steals from, as in his mind... he needs these things to live and to upkeep GIR, whilst others just want them.

Their relationship is very playful and love/hate. Dib often 'forgets' and 'misplaces' his lunch during breaks, leaving quickly enough for the food to still be warm by the time Zim finds it.

Whenever Dib's in danger dealing with a more serious and big time criminal, Zim will just so happen to be in the area to help the law-strict cop work around his conducts. After all, Dib can't lose his job if it wasn't him who directly beat someone up, and instead simply found the suspect beat to a pulp.

... Yeah, that's all I've got, really.

Expect art of it soon.

[foreverandmoretarot]

how does wonyoung feel about the hate she recieves?

before i start i want to say that the answer to my question was kinda unrelated? i honestly think she just wanted to speak about how she felt with izone and her personal life rather the questions i planned. not that i mind skdjdj just a heads up!

consent to this reading?

10 of cups

yes. she felt quite willing.

how does she feel about the shift from love to hate since debuting in ive?

2 of swords rev, page of pentacles rev, queen of cups

one of the main things i sensed was that she sacrificed a lot to be an idol. she showed vulnerable parts of herself to the public, some of it being unwillingly. but initially she felt it was worth it because she loved being in iz*one. she really adored the girls and definitely made that clear to me. they made her feel secure, at home, and at her best. she felt comfortable around them, and around fans too. i think her relationship with the industry was a lot more relaxed and she wasn't afraid to be vulnerable.

while reading the first card the air felt really heavy and sad :( their disbandment was definitely difficult for her

she really wanted to stay as a group but didn't have the power to change anything. she knew the end would come before she was ready to say goodbye, and i think this was where the sad energy came from. despite her strong feelings, which i think she was vocal to them about the people in power along with her company didn't care how she felt. im sensing money was prioritized.

despite her being in a new environment with more negative opinions on her, shes overcome the hate quite well. i don't see the hate having a significant impact on how she feels about herself and her career. shes confident about her strengths and has good control of managing her emotions. i'm sensing her close circle of people is a major factor of her feeling this way. theres a lot of good friends/people in her life. they take her mind off her job and make her feel like a regular human. yeah she definitely isn't alone, thats a clear message coming through.

to sum it up, she misses iz*one dearly and felt safer when she had them, but the increase in hate doesn't affect her majorly!

any further comments you want to say?

8 of swords, 10 of cups rev, the hermit

the number 3 came to mind right before i started the reading, and it came up again right after i asked this question. i decided to split my deck into 3 piles and chose the top card from each of them after shuffling

despite most of the reading being her overcoming her problems and having positive outcomes, these last few cards were really opposite? shes currently avoiding something, i think a conversation with either her family or group members. a fight took place and she really needed/still needs space from them, so she distanced herself for a while. i got mixed signals whether this was ive or iz*one, but im leaning towards ive.

this last part is a stretch, and i could very well be misinterpreting it- but im just here to share what i read and felt. while reading these last 3 cards i kept getting the feeling that ive were splitting up due to whatever this issue wonyoung was dealing with was. she didnt feel mad or sad, it was more like "its a bummer, but things just aren't working out". it came to me really abruptly, and a little panicked? take that information however you'd like. im not sure if this is just potentially happening or if its something that can be fixed. well thats all, thanks sm for reading!

[iznsfw]

what's your kpop journey ? (how you got into it, your first groups and biased, your opinion on kpop before etc.)

My first K-pop group was Brave Girls. I stanned them back in 2016 when they were super nugu, and was surprised to see them suddenly become famous overnight two years ago. Although I don't get into them anymore, I still like Yuna and Yujeong.

Then I got into Blackpink. Jisoo and Jennie were my biases.

Prior to liking them and Brave Girls, I had a nonchalance towards K-pop. I didn't mind them, but I didn't like them either. The two groups changed my mind when I was scrolling through YouTube and saw them randomly in my recommendations.

I got into IZ*ONE during the pandemic. I liked Eunbi first. I saw her chair dance and her innocent dorkiness in variety shows and immediately fell in love. It took a while for me to learn every girl's name in IZ*ONE, but it was worth it because now I love the twelve stars so much <3

So yeah, IZ*ONE is my safe place, particularly their leader tokki 🐇👰‍♀

[waterparksdrama]

do you think the labels and such are actually pushing awsten to create another set of songs for the new album this fast or do you think hes actually taking his time and has some several ideas already? tbh isnt that what fbr is almost known for (maybe even mddn as management from what i recall?)

do you think if this is moreso forced than not the result will be low effort enough to backfire? mind you even this era cycle before the release he mentioned “yeah tbh im really not like Eager to release something new so fast because of xyz”

i think awsten really just has too many ideas for his own good tbh i really don't think many artists on fbr or mddn (or just. in general) have this sort of obsessive nature with work that there's this many releases in between a relatively short span of time for each album cycle

like airplane convos and black light both have a decent amount of time in between them mostly because of the amount of time it would have to take for them to fund and get everyone together from their normal jobs to record, but once they got signed in general they started releasing things very quickly. i mean cluster and double dare were released in the same goddamn year and they only came up on a year for releasing double dare once they started the cycle for entertainment.

i feel like even though awsten is always working and having ideas for the future, he partially pushes these new releases so soon because he's scared of becoming irrelevant if they're not in your face all the time and has a bad habit of ignoring the past instead of truly evolving and acknowledging it. maybe some part of him being the only one in la while the rest of his band is still back home in houston and not being able to do much with them in general outside of work anyways.

but going back to what you said, i don't think awsten is capable of releasing something that is low effort as stupid as the results may be because he thinks of all the elements and sounds meticulously (he's a perfectionist with varied results tbh). he really just has too many ideas not to get released but i think he's starting to get burnt out by the music industry as a whole, whatever the fuck la has, and the young fanbase he has that he's growing more and more distant from as he gets older - iz

[ask-a-bot]

MS- Motorcycle and Drone… zey are good choices! Very good. Mine is a Jet like mozt Seekers, but Downpour still has her Cybertronian alt mode.

DP- it’s the curse of being tall, I still can’t find a jet that’s big enough…

MS- I’m glad jou like my accent little one! It iz not a Cybertronian one though, it iz a German one. Vhen i first arrived one Earth, I downloaded ze German Language Pack instead of ze English one. Ze accent stuck. I don’t mind, I quite like ze accent, although…

DP- ya wish you didn’t sound like Blitzwing?

MS- bah, he irritates me.

DP- lots of people irritate you. Uh, I don’t mind nicknames, and I got nice legs so I take that one as a compliment. Monsoon doesn’t like his much though, heh. We’ve definitely gotten a few strange looks from humans when 🪣 tells them we’re their siblings, but in fairness we are well… huge.

MS- do ze Pigeons that tried to nezt on me count az pets?

DP- …I don’t think so?

🪣- no they don’t Sooney. Your Dugout sounds like it’s nice and cozy. The underground bunker is a bit creepy so far, but we only just started cleaning it. The fact I’m finding G.H.O.S.T vans down here is… probably not a good sign though…

Ugh, GHOST! Starscream says they hurt him just because they could and he and all the other bots were all treated like animals.

Star probably deserved it though.

They didn't do it because he's a war criminal. They did bad stuff to Grimlock, too. The only reason they didn't hurt Optimus or Megatron is because people like Mom and Jon would've done something.

Megs probably would've deserved it too. I mean, he started the war in the first place and now we're expected to fix everything.

Sometimes, I can't believe you're my brother.

Twitch decided she doesn't want to talk anymore. So... who's Blitzwing? Yeah, your German accent is pretty cool. Star would probably say it's better than Megs's Tarn accent.

... So, what's your nickname? Soon? Monny, like the painter? Money? Monster, like the energy drink?

[irkenheretic]

ahaaaaaaaaaaa~ i missed anarchismas 4th biethday in september whoopsie

ANYWAY i was going thru my old posts for The Nostalgia and i think now iz a good time to mention: I AM CURED!!!!!

well. not CURED. but i DID find a painkiller regieme that worked for me AND got my heart condition diagnosed n treated (it was arrhtymia!) and now im on meds 4 it

this fandom is a burning trashpile of shit but i have unwavering faith in anarchisma as a story bc lbr, its not every day that someone hypes something up for THREE YEARS and then its largely seen as living up to the hype, even if the intro was a first person oc pov. no matter how shit the fandom becomes im still gonna do it, and be perfectly clear that anarchisma was made for an adult audience in mind but that anyone can read it- but if you dont like it, maybe. dont. read it

and if i get doxxed i get doxxed. i own a gun. and i use a pseudonym in my career anyway so like. yeah im not exactly scared of it. i'll doxx you right back idgaf. how are u gonna explain to your mommy that you have to move bc you were a bit too mean on the internet? im a grown man i can pack up and move lmfao

anyway. im gonna do nanowrimo! not for anarchisma sadly :( but wish me luuuckkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!! i wanna get in2 the writing habit so i can finish anarchisma so ya :)